Times I should've realized I was Autistic

Illy realized during her childhood that throughout her symptoms, she is autistic.

Transcript

1. Scene 1 Duration 17:15 Panel 1 Duration 17:15 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 1/167
2. Scene 27 Duration 04:14 Panel 1 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: Back when I was 11, I was on this weekend retreat kinda thing for church? Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 2/167
3. Scene 27 Duration 04:14 Panel 2 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: Back when I was 11, I was on this weekend retreat kinda thing for church? Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 3/167
4. Scene 27 Duration 04:14 Panel 3 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: Back when I was 11, I was on this weekend retreat kinda thing for church? Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 4/167
5. Scene 27 Duration 04:14 Panel 4 Duration 01:14 Dialog ILLY VO: Back when I was 11, I was on this weekend retreat kinda thing for church? Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 5/167
6. Scene 28 Duration 05:14 Panel 1 Duration 01:14 Dialog ILLY: But I didn’t have many close friends in my youth group – cuz they found me weird and didn’t like interacting with me. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 6/167
7. Scene 28 Duration 05:14 Panel 2 Duration 01:14 Dialog ILLY: But I didn’t have many close friends in my youth group – cuz they found me weird and didn’t like interacting with me. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 7/167
8. Scene 28 Duration 05:14 Panel 3 Duration 00:23 Dialog ILLY: But I didn’t have many close friends in my youth group – cuz they found me weird and didn’t like interacting with me. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 8/167
9. Scene 28 Duration 05:14 Panel 4 Duration 01:11 Dialog ILLY: But I didn’t have many close friends in my youth group – cuz they found me weird and didn’t like interacting with me. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 9/167
10. Scene 29 Duration 04:00 Panel 1 Duration 01:00 Dialog I also didn’t have many friends in school, in fact, I was getting bullied for unknown reasons– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 10/167
11. Scene 29 Duration 04:00 Panel 2 Duration 01:00 Dialog I also didn’t have many friends in school, in fact, I was getting bullied for unknown reasons– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 11/167
12. Scene 29 Duration 04:00 Panel 3 Duration 01:00 Dialog I also didn’t have many friends in school, in fact, I was getting bullied for unknown reasons– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 12/167
13. Scene 29 Duration 04:00 Panel 4 Duration 01:00 Dialog I also didn’t have many friends in school, in fact, I was getting bullied for unknown reasons– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 13/167
14. Scene 30 Duration 02:14 Panel 1 Duration 01:00 Dialog I also didn’t have many friends in school, in fact, I was getting bullied for unknown reasons– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 14/167
15. Scene 30 Duration 02:14 Panel 2 Duration 01:14 Dialog I also didn’t have many friends in school, in fact, I was getting bullied for unknown reasons– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 15/167
16. Scene 31 Duration 03:11 Panel 1 Duration 01:02 Dialog I also didn’t have many friends in school, in fact, I was getting bullied for unknown reasons– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 16/167
17. Scene 31 Duration 03:11 Panel 2 Duration 02:09 Dialog oh. Wow. Okay. Point is, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 17/167
18. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 1 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 18/167
19. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 2 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 19/167
20. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 3 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 20/167
21. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 4 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 21/167
22. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 5 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 22/167
23. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 6 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 23/167
24. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 7 Duration 00:03 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 24/167
25. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 8 Duration 00:06 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 25/167
26. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 9 Duration 00:05 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 26/167
27. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 10 Duration 00:05 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 27/167
28. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 11 Duration 00:05 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 28/167
29. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 12 Duration 00:05 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 29/167
30. Scene 32 Duration 07:10 Panel 13 Duration 00:05 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 30/167
31. Scene 33 Duration 03:14 Panel 1 Duration 01:05 Dialog ILLY VO: I didn’t know how to interact with people properly, but I knew mimicking how others interacted with me kinda worked! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 31/167
32. Scene 33 Duration 03:14 Panel 2 Duration 01:02 Dialog IILLY VO: So we get to the lake with the giant cross in the middle, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 32/167
33. Scene 33 Duration 03:14 Panel 3 Duration 00:15 Dialog ILLY VO: So we get to the lake with the giant cross in the middle, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 33/167
34. Scene 33 Duration 03:14 Panel 4 Duration 00:16 Dialog ILLY VO: So we get to the lake with the giant cross in the middle, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 34/167
35. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 1 Duration 00:06 Dialog ILLY VO: We get out of the van, and this one kid grabs his bags and says Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 35/167
36. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 2 Duration 00:10 Dialog ILLY VO: We get out of the van, and this one kid grabs his bags and says Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 36/167
37. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 3 Duration 00:15 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 37/167
38. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 4 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: We get out of the van, and this one kid grabs his bags and says Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 38/167
39. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 5 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: We get out of the van, and this one kid grabs his bags and says Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 39/167
40. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 6 Duration 00:15 Dialog ILLY VO: We get out of the van, and this one kid grabs his bags and says Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 40/167
41. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 7 Duration 00:15 Dialog ILLY VO: We get out of the van, and this one kid grabs his bags and says Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 41/167
42. Scene 34 Duration 03:21 Panel 8 Duration 00:14 Dialog ILLY VO: We get out of the van, and this one kid grabs his bags and says Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 42/167
43. Scene 35 Duration 02:18 Panel 1 Duration 00:19 Dialog KID: I CAN’T WAIT TO GET INSIDE! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 43/167
44. Scene 35 Duration 02:18 Panel 2 Duration 00:20 Dialog KID: I CAN’T WAIT TO GET INSIDE! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 44/167
45. Scene 35 Duration 02:18 Panel 3 Duration 01:03 Dialog KID: I CAN’T WAIT TO GET INSIDE! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 45/167
46. Scene 36 Duration 11:08 Panel 1 Duration 01:17 Dialog ILLY VO: and RUNS ahead of us. (illy smirks w a good idea) So I, mimicking the kinds of things that worked for other kids, decided to say: Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 46/167
47. Scene 36 Duration 11:08 Panel 2 Duration 01:20 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 47/167
48. Scene 36 Duration 11:08 Panel 3 Duration 00:19 Dialog ILLY VO: and RUNS ahead of us. (illy smirks w a good idea) So I, mimicking the kinds of things that worked for other kids, decided to say: Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 48/167
49. Scene 36 Duration 11:08 Panel 4 Duration 05:00 Dialog ILLY VO: and RUNS ahead of us. (illy smirks w a good idea) So I, mimicking the kinds of things that worked for other kids, decided to say: Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 49/167
50. Scene 36 Duration 11:08 Panel 5 Duration 00:20 Dialog ILLY VO: and RUNS ahead of us. (illy smirks w a good idea) So I, mimicking the kinds of things that worked for other kids, decided to say: Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 50/167
51. Scene 36 Duration 11:08 Panel 6 Duration 00:16 Dialog ILLY VO: and RUNS ahead of us. (illy smirks w a good idea) So I, mimicking the kinds of things that worked for other kids, decided to say: Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 51/167
52. Scene 36 Duration 11:08 Panel 7 Duration 00:12 Dialog ILLY VO: and RUNS ahead of us. (illy smirks w a good idea) So I, mimicking the kinds of things that worked for other kids, decided to say: Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 52/167
53. Scene 37 Duration 07:04 Panel 1 Duration 02:17 Dialog ILLY: So, yeah. I didn’t understand why being myself wasn’t allowed or why copying other people wasn’t working, I tried… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 53/167
54. Scene 37 Duration 07:04 Panel 2 Duration 02:07 Dialog ILLY: So, yeah. I didn’t understand why being myself wasn’t allowed or why copying other people wasn’t working, I tried… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 54/167
55. Scene 37 Duration 07:04 Panel 3 Duration 02:04 Dialog ILLY: So, yeah. I didn’t understand why being myself wasn’t allowed or why copying other people wasn’t working, I tried… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 55/167
56. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 1 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 56/167
57. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 2 Duration 00:04 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 57/167
58. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 3 Duration 00:05 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 58/167
59. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 4 Duration 00:05 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 59/167
60. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 5 Duration 00:07 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 60/167
61. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 6 Duration 00:03 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 61/167
62. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 7 Duration 00:08 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 62/167
63. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 8 Duration 00:08 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 63/167
64. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 9 Duration 00:07 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 64/167
65. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 10 Duration 00:08 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 65/167
66. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 11 Duration 00:05 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 66/167
67. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 12 Duration 02:00 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 67/167
68. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 13 Duration 00:04 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 68/167
69. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 14 Duration 00:12 Dialog ILLY (CONTINUED): doing… nothing. I did my best to quiet my brain and hide the person I was. Which was SOOOO EASY! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 69/167
70. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 15 Duration 00:19 Dialog Stranger: Oh phew, that’s good to hear! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 70/167
71. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 16 Duration 01:00 Dialog Stranger: Oh phew, that’s good to hear! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 71/167
72. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 17 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY: oh no no no… I was being sarcastic. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 72/167
73. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 18 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY: oh no no no… I was being sarcastic. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 73/167
74. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 19 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY: oh no no no… I was being sarcastic. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 74/167
75. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 20 Duration 01:00 Dialog Stranger: Oh :c Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 75/167
76. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 21 Duration 01:00 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 76/167
77. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 22 Duration 01:00 Dialog Stranger: Aw man :/ Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 77/167
78. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 23 Duration 02:02 Dialog ILLY: It’s okay. Dry humor and sarcasm sometimes goes over my head and right into my fragile heart, too. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 78/167
79. Scene 38 Duration 20:11 Panel 24 Duration 04:10 Dialog ILLY: It’s okay. Dry humor and sarcasm sometimes goes over my head and right into my fragile heart, too. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 79/167
80. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 1 Duration 00:13 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 80/167
81. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 2 Duration 00:08 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 81/167
82. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 3 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 82/167
83. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 4 Duration 00:02 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 83/167
84. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 5 Duration 00:06 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 84/167
85. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 6 Duration 01:06 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 85/167
86. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 7 Duration 00:07 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 86/167
87. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 8 Duration 00:07 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 87/167
88. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 9 Duration 00:14 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 88/167
89. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 10 Duration 00:02 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 89/167
90. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 11 Duration 00:02 Dialog ILLY: (sneaky giggle) he hehe ehehehh Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 90/167
91. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 12 Duration 00:03 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 91/167
92. Scene 39 Duration 04:22 Panel 13 Duration 00:15 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 92/167
93. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 1 Duration 02:09 Dialog FRIEND (over headphones): Dude did you just destroy my bed Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 93/167
94. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 2 Duration 01:16 Dialog ILLY: Hheheheheheheh yes Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 94/167
95. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 3 Duration 01:14 Dialog FRIEND: (laughs) god I hate you Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 95/167
96. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 4 Duration 03:11 Dialog ILLY: wh-? You mean it? Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 96/167
97. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 5 Duration 01:03 Dialog FRIEND: What-? No! No, I was joking. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 97/167
98. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 6 Duration 00:14 Dialog FRIEND: What-? No! No, I was joking. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 98/167
99. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 7 Duration 02:03 Dialog ILLY: why would you joke about that Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 99/167
100. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 8 Duration 01:07 Dialog FRIEND: because - it’s - well, now if I explain it it’s not funny anymore Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 100/167
101. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 9 Duration 00:22 Dialog FRIEND: because - it’s - well, now if I explain it it’s not funny anymore Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 101/167
102. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 10 Duration 01:18 Dialog FRIEND: because - it’s - well, now if I explain it it’s not funny anymore Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 102/167
103. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 11 Duration 02:13 Dialog ILLY: it wasn’t that funny to begin with Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 103/167
104. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 12 Duration 02:06 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 104/167
105. Scene 40 Duration 23:16 Panel 13 Duration 02:00 Dialog FRIEND: DUDE-h Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 105/167
106. Scene 41 Duration 00:20 Panel 1 Duration 00:20 Dialog ILLY VO: So yeah, all my life, I’ve felt my brain was shaped like a bean, but everyone else’s was shaped like… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 106/167
107. Scene 42 Duration 01:00 Panel 1 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY VO: So yeah, all my life, I’ve felt my brain was shaped like a bean, but everyone else’s was shaped like… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 107/167
108. Scene 43 Duration 01:14 Panel 1 Duration 01:14 Dialog ILLY VO: So yeah, all my life, I’ve felt my brain was shaped like a bean, but everyone else’s was shaped like… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 108/167
109. Scene 44 Duration 01:21 Panel 1 Duration 01:21 Dialog ILLY VO: So yeah, all my life, I’ve felt my brain was shaped like a bean, but everyone else’s was shaped like… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 109/167
110. Scene 45 Duration 04:07 Panel 1 Duration 02:22 Dialog ILLY: like a legume, which… I think is … different… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 110/167
111. Scene 45 Duration 04:07 Panel 2 Duration 01:09 Dialog ILLY: like a legume, which… I think is … different… Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 111/167
112. Scene 46 Duration 05:15 Panel 1 Duration 05:15 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 112/167
113. Scene 47 Duration 13:07 Panel 1 Duration 01:10 Dialog Ok yeah– Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 113/167
114. Scene 47 Duration 13:07 Panel 2 Duration 02:00 Dialog ILLY: yeah! This world was made for tough nuts, and I am a squishy little chickpea. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 114/167
115. Scene 47 Duration 13:07 Panel 3 Duration 03:07 Dialog ILLY: yeah! This world was made for tough nuts, and I am a squishy little chickpea. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 115/167
116. Scene 47 Duration 13:07 Panel 4 Duration 02:19 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 116/167
117. Scene 47 Duration 13:07 Panel 5 Duration 01:08 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 117/167
118. Scene 47 Duration 13:07 Panel 6 Duration 02:11 Dialog ILLY: yeah! This world was made for tough nuts, and I am a squishy little chickpea. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 118/167
119. Scene 48 Duration 05:06 Panel 1 Duration 01:19 Dialog ILLY VO: And sometimes I could swing it, tossing my garbanzos into recipes and hoping things worked out, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 119/167
120. Scene 48 Duration 05:06 Panel 2 Duration 00:23 Dialog ILLY VO: And sometimes I could swing it, tossing my garbanzos into recipes and hoping things worked out, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 120/167
121. Scene 48 Duration 05:06 Panel 3 Duration 00:20 Dialog ILLY VO: And sometimes I could swing it, tossing my garbanzos into recipes and hoping things worked out, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 121/167
122. Scene 48 Duration 05:06 Panel 4 Duration 01:16 Dialog ILLY VO: And sometimes I could swing it, tossing my garbanzos into recipes and hoping things worked out, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 122/167
123. Scene 49 Duration 05:03 Panel 1 Duration 01:10 Dialog ILLY VO: And sometimes I could swing it, tossing my garbanzos into recipes and hoping things worked out, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 123/167
124. Scene 49 Duration 05:03 Panel 2 Duration 01:07 Dialog ILLY VO: but sometimes, I couldn’t, because I can’t! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 124/167
125. Scene 49 Duration 05:03 Panel 3 Duration 01:02 Dialog ILLY VO: but sometimes, I couldn’t, because I can’t! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 125/167
126. Scene 49 Duration 05:03 Panel 4 Duration 01:08 Dialog ILLY VO: but sometimes, I couldn’t, because I can’t! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 126/167
127. Scene 50 Duration 03:21 Panel 1 Duration 00:18 Dialog ILLY VO: but sometimes, I couldn’t, because I can’t! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 127/167
128. Scene 50 Duration 03:21 Panel 2 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY: How would you feel if you bit into [pulls out candy from pocket, other kids are like ! candy?] your Reese’s cup and found out it was a fucking [breaks it to reveal beans spilling] BEAN CUP?! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 128/167
129. Scene 50 Duration 03:21 Panel 3 Duration 00:11 Dialog ILLY: How would you feel if you bit into [pulls out candy from pocket, other kids are like ! candy?] your Reese’s cup and found out it was a fucking [breaks it to reveal beans spilling] BEAN CUP?! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 129/167
130. Scene 50 Duration 03:21 Panel 4 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY: How would you feel if you bit into [pulls out candy from pocket, other kids are like ! candy?] your Reese’s cup and found out it was a fucking [breaks it to reveal beans spilling] BEAN CUP?! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 130/167
131. Scene 50 Duration 03:21 Panel 5 Duration 00:07 Dialog ILLY: How would you feel if you bit into [pulls out candy from pocket, other kids are like ! candy?] your Reese’s cup and found out it was a fucking [breaks it to reveal beans spilling] BEAN CUP?! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 131/167
132. Scene 50 Duration 03:21 Panel 6 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY: How would you feel if you bit into [pulls out candy from pocket, other kids are like ! candy?] your Reese’s cup and found out it was a fucking [breaks it to reveal beans spilling] BEAN CUP?! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 132/167
133. Scene 51 Duration 03:00 Panel 1 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY: You gonna get mad at the beans?! Do you really think they want to be there? Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 133/167
134. Scene 51 Duration 03:00 Panel 2 Duration 01:00 Dialog ILLY: You gonna get mad at the beans?! Do you really think they want to be there? Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 134/167
135. Scene 51 Duration 03:00 Panel 3 Duration 00:07 Dialog ILLY: Look at them! This – Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 135/167
136. Scene 51 Duration 03:00 Panel 4 Duration 00:17 Dialog ILLY: Look at them! This – Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 136/167
137. Scene 52 Duration 02:15 Panel 1 Duration 00:01 Dialog ILLY: this is what hell looks like. I would know. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 137/167
138. Scene 52 Duration 02:15 Panel 2 Duration 00:01 Dialog ILLY: this is what hell looks like. I would know. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 138/167
139. Scene 52 Duration 02:15 Panel 3 Duration 00:02 Dialog ILLY: this is what hell looks like. I would know. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 139/167
140. Scene 52 Duration 02:15 Panel 4 Duration 00:02 Dialog ILLY: this is what hell looks like. I would know. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 140/167
141. Scene 52 Duration 02:15 Panel 5 Duration 00:02 Dialog ILLY: this is what hell looks like. I would know. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 141/167
142. Scene 52 Duration 02:15 Panel 6 Duration 02:07 Dialog ILLY: this is what hell looks like. I would know. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 142/167
143. Scene 53 Duration 09:08 Panel 1 Duration 01:16 Dialog ILLY: Cuz no matter what I do differently or how hard I try, [picks up a reeses cup] this is my brain! And this is how it works… fuckin… [cracks it open] bean cup. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 143/167
144. Scene 53 Duration 09:08 Panel 2 Duration 03:08 Dialog ILLY: Cuz no matter what I do differently or how hard I try, [picks up a reeses cup] this is my brain! And this is how it works… fuckin… [cracks it open] bean cup. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 144/167
145. Scene 53 Duration 09:08 Panel 3 Duration 02:07 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 145/167
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147. Scene 53 Duration 09:08 Panel 5 Duration 00:09 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 147/167
148. Scene 53 Duration 09:08 Panel 6 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY: Cuz no matter what I do differently or how hard I try, [picks up a reeses cup] this is my brain! And this is how it works… fuckin… [cracks it open] bean cup. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 148/167
149. Scene 53 Duration 09:08 Panel 7 Duration 00:04 Dialog ILLY: Cuz no matter what I do differently or how hard I try, [picks up a reeses cup] this is my brain! And this is how it works… fuckin… [cracks it open] bean cup. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 149/167
150. Scene 53 Duration 09:08 Panel 8 Duration 00:07 Dialog ILLY: Cuz no matter what I do differently or how hard I try, [picks up a reeses cup] this is my brain! And this is how it works… fuckin… [cracks it open] bean cup. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 150/167
151. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 1 Duration 04:20 Dialog ILLY VO: So… Life can really suck if you’re atypical! Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 151/167
152. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 2 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: People look at you weird, treat you differently, infantalize you, ignore you, take advantage of you, hurt you. However, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 152/167
153. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 3 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: People look at you weird, treat you differently, infantalize you, ignore you, take advantage of you, hurt you. However, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 153/167
154. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 4 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: People look at you weird, treat you differently, infantalize you, ignore you, take advantage of you, hurt you. However, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 154/167
155. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 5 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: People look at you weird, treat you differently, infantalize you, ignore you, take advantage of you, hurt you. However, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 155/167
156. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 6 Duration 00:09 Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 156/167
157. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 7 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: People look at you weird, treat you differently, infantalize you, ignore you, take advantage of you, hurt you. However, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 157/167
158. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 8 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: People look at you weird, treat you differently, infantalize you, ignore you, take advantage of you, hurt you. However, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 158/167
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164. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 14 Duration 00:09 Dialog ILLY VO: People look at you weird, treat you differently, infantalize you, ignore you, take advantage of you, hurt you. However, Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 164/167
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166. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 16 Duration 01:06 Dialog ILLY: Something important I should point out is, there’s nothing “wrong” with me or anyone who is neurodivergent, no matter where they are on the spectrum or how you perceive them. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 166/167
167. Scene 54 Duration 11:18 Panel 17 Duration 00:10 Dialog ILLY: Something important I should point out is, there’s nothing “wrong” with me or anyone who is neurodivergent, no matter where they are on the spectrum or how you perceive them. Times I should've realized I was autistic Page 167/167