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WordCamp Auckland: I'm an imposter because...

WordCamp Auckland: I'm an imposter because...

Imposter Syndrome. It’s not new and anyone can get it, be they royalty, an American founding father or – in modern times – web professionals of all stages in their career and of all disciplines.

Peter Wilson

March 12, 2017
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  1. I’m an imposter because…
    Peter Wilson • @pwcc • peterwilson.cc

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  2. Imposter Syndrome
    Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon or
    fraud syndrome) is a concept describing high-achieving individuals
    who are marked by an inability to internalize their
    accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a
    “fraud".
    –Wikipedia

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  3. Imposter Syndrome
    Impostor syndrome is that internal voice telling you that despite
    objective success, in fact, you’re shit at your job.
    –Peter Wilson

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  4. Loaded with superabundant talent, [he] was a mass of insecurities
    that he usually kept well hidden. He always had to fight the
    residual sadness of the driven man, the unspoken melancholy of
    the prodigy.
    –Ron Chernow

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  6. Photo: Joan Marcus

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  9. Photo: @WCEurope

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    You’re not a real developer if…

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    You’re not a real developer if…
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    You’re not a real developer if…
    #yourenotarealdeveloper
    "If you are a real developer Leave
    software packages like Wordpress,
    Drupal and Joomla alone."
    2:33 AM - 9 Feb 2015

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  13. You’re not a real developer
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  14. You are a real developer.

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  15. You’re not a
    good
    developer.

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  16. You’re not a good developer
    I see myself as a front end developer who knows enough back end

    to be dangerous.
    –Peter Wilson

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  19. Hello World

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  20. flic.kr/p/9h2dWR

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  21. flic.kr/p/oA9xdT

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  22. flic.kr/p/niwAQi

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  23. My inner monologue is
    a real bastard.

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  24. Managing the imposter

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  25. clearleft.com

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  26. Jeremy Keith

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  27. An expectation of learning

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  28. An expectation of ignorance

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  29. Jeremy Keith

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    You’re a real developer if…
    Tim Dierks
    @tdierks

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    Hello, my name is Tim. I'm a lead at Google
    with over 30 years coding experience and I
    need to look up how to get [a string’s length].
    5:02 AM - 27 Feb 2017
    Tim Dierks
    @tdierks

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    Hello my name is Jon, I'm the Android lead at
    Phunware. I can't read an input stream without
    copying and pasting code from stack overflow.
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    Jon F Hancock
    @JonFHancock

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  34. 3D Transforms

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  35. Hello my name is Jon, I'm the Android lead at
    Phunware. I can't read an input stream without
    copying and pasting code from stack overflow.
    Jon F Hancock
    @JonFHancock
    5:02 AM - 27 Feb 2017

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  36. Hello my name is Jon, I'm the Android lead at
    Phunware. I can't read an input stream without
    copying and pasting code from stack overflow.

    Jon F Hancock
    @JonFHancock
    5:02 AM - 27 Feb 2017

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  37. Never feel like
    an imposter again

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  38. Never feel like
    an imposter again
    Terms and conditions apply.

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  41. See, that’s what happens when you up against the ruffians

    We in the shit now, somebody gotta shovel it!
    Hercules Mulligan, I need no introduction

    When you knock me down I get the fuck back up again!
    –Hercules Mulligan (Hamilton the Musical)

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  42. Be a ruffian

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  43. Be a ruffian
    Get the fuck back up again

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  44. Suppose … a deep disbelief in myself, forced me to do a magic to
    bring up to the surface a thing I know anyway?
    Does that make any sense to you?
    –Samuel Hamilton (East of Eden)

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  45. Suppose … a deep disbelief in myself, forced me to do a magic to
    bring up to the surface a thing I know anyway?
    Does that make any sense to you?
    –Samuel Hamilton (East of Eden)

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  46. Thank you
    Peter Wilson • @pwcc • peterwilson.cc
    ruffian

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  47. Discussion
    Peter Wilson • @pwcc • peterwilson.cc
    ruffian

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